Additions

To the list of produce from the kitchen:

Nearly vegetarian quiche

Ricotta cheesecake

Garlic prawns with mango salsa

Chocolate mud cake

The ultimate avocado and chicken salad

Non alcoholic trifle- conventional and black forest varieties

Cottage cheesecake

To the list of new piercings on the right ear- completion:

Tragus

Snug

Upper ear

To the series and movies of completed viewing:

10 Things I Hate About You

Glee

The Vampire Diaries

Chuck

Push

The Night At the Museum II

Madagascar III

Monsters VS Aliens

Drillbit Taylor

Bedtime Stories

Stomp the Yard

The Proposal

Win a Date with Tad Hamilton

Paranormal Activity

Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs 3D

The Deaths of Ian Stone

To the list of dying things on my body:

Eyes

Lower back

Skin

... stupid lack of sleep

Bwahaha... I love holidays. Catch up on movies! Eyes are paying the price! YAY!

Hui Hui ^^b

For some reason

Feeling very ecstatic, excited, messy, spontaneous, glowing... mnmnn... basically a cocktail of feel good vibes.

I don't know why.

Such a contrast to the last entry where I was feeling down in the deepest depth of any possible dimension.

Du would say it's hormones.

I say it was the run I had this morning =)

6am alarm. Woke up to a tune by Jessica Mauboy, don't remember what it was. Reluctant to get out of bed, but I needed this run. Felt super good. Now I still feel super good. Quite insane to wake up at 6am in the holidays to go for a run. Hill sprints were awesome. Interval running was a bit epic fail. Stupid hills. Teehee.

Otherwise... been driving a lot. Yesterday was on the freeway for the first time. Super awesome. 50km/hour zones felt like eternity afterwards. Getting the hang of this driving fast thing. Will be learning maneuvers today. Parking. Drive ways. More parking.

Bro's flying out again today. Won't be back till 3 weeks later. We had 1 jam session, singing Goodbye Days by Yui. Good times.

Addicted to bubble tea once again. Haven't had this for about 2 years now? Sigh. Maybe I'll be able to beat Kasia in completing 2 sheets of 100 cups loyalty card? =D

Loving the sunshine.

Hui Hui ^^b

The Ugly Truth

Why so angry?

Why so critical?

Why so harsh?

I know it's reality, but can't you just express it in a nicer, warmer way... rather than in that harsh, loud, excited, cynical tone of voice? Is being nicer really that hard?

You can tell me about reality, not yell it at me. You can educate me about reality, not blame me for it. You can have a discussion about reality with me, not have a heated argument.

Maybe I don't like this reality. Maybe I would rather not accept it and keep to my values. Do you care about my values? No. Does anyone else's thoughts matter? No. Even if you have the rightest values that make sense, can you not just turn it down a notch to not involve politics? Maybe not all humans are bad? Maybe not all humans are greedy to the same extent?

Is it bad to believe the best in people?

Must we concentrate on the worse?

Is the world really that corrupted and immoral?

If it is true... this world sucks.

It becomes ignorant to be innocent.

Everyone is guilty until proven innocent.

Treat everyone not like how you want to be treated, because that becomes having exterior motives.

Guess Ben is right... I am emo. Sigh.

Hui Hui ^^b

Deep in thought

After about 2 months of exams (felt like 2 months anyway)... it has all finally stopped. Stopped. Hopefully all finished. 4th year here we come! Quite an exciting time + holidays for about 2.5 months + sleep in = YAY! A decent break finally... everyone was so burnt out that no one could actually study properly for the last few exams. The only worrying part of this.


The big plans:
1 Get my driver's license
2 Get a job and earn some money to fuel my thrifty spending
3 RELAX
4 Spend time with family and friends
5 SLEEP

6 Dance, dance, dance!

Ahhhh... the ability to just sit and think about what to think about. Such a strange feeling. It's like suffering from withdrawal symptoms... when we are not stressed flat out, it feels rather strange as we are all so used to being really busy and pressed for time. Now that we have all the time in the world... it becomes unproductive but thoroughly enjoyable *grins*, so I guess a balance has to be struck. I like being busy... but with regular breaks in between would be nice. Speaking of which, next year's mid semester break is 3 weeks! 3 whole weeks!!! So epic. So without uni to keep the busy half occupied... I have found other things to keep it going.

Shopping
Cleaning
Walking
Running
Reading

Hehe... not all productive, but most fairly good. Just actually having time to do what I want to do rather than just worrying about studying is fantastic. =)

Have been spending time with Mum, Dad... Bro next week when he flies back in from site. The house will be warm and noisy with the 4 of us living together again! Whoa... it has actually been a crazy year where many different people have lived in the house! It will be just our family again... the "norm". How strange... whoa...

Caught up with friends whom I don't usually see. That is a major plus plus plus. =)

OK... here comes the main part of the post actually. Why I'm deep in thought.

After catching up with some friends, my 'losing faith in people' comment was somewhat reinforced. Which is not a good sign. The lack of innocence, bad choices, immorality... the world is actually a very scary place. I'm glad that I found out about this facet of society/people and that I'm not involved with it, but am able to look at it from a 3rd person point of view and learn from it. I really wonder how the people involved feel. It is mainly the relationships and decisions made within the relationships that make them so freaking scary. Humans are very complicated. So complicated. It does my head in sometimes... why some people would think in that certain way and act it out... only to end up in a heap of mess... an obvious heap of mess that could have be easily avoided.

Maybe some just can't see the hole they are digging?
Maybe some have to learn by making the mistake?
There is always a positive side to things right?
I hope so.

Yes... that just got me thinking a whole lot... and my head is hurting now. Time to revert back to goal number 3 RELAX so I shall leave this post and ponder some more later when I feel like some intense soul searching/thinking. Teehee... I love it when I have time.

Hui Hui ^^b

Another 1st

so tired.
intense day.
did my first amalgam restoration. totally kicked ass... except time management was bad today.
feel so bad for my second patient. sigh.
was about to cry in clinic because of all the stress/relief/excitement/new experiences.
sometimes i wish i wasn't the crying type.
sigh.

really getting into this focus mode now.
exams are so close.
more assessments this week, next week, the week after... then study break + exams.
yay.

sometimes i wish learning was not so much for the sake of exams.
so much to handle with so little time... + dancing.
gah.

must stay positive. will get through this. hold the water works. work hard at my passion, try my best.

ahhh... teeth =)

Hui Hui ^^b

Lack of sleep

Can something please go right today?
A very negative thought that popped into my head this morning.

Posterior try in died. Patient is sick and could not make it. Only 3 more weeks of clinic left.
Sigh.
Needing to swap clinic sessions. Not sure if it can happen.
Sigh.
Splint patient referred to endo clinic. When can I make that splint?
Sigh.

The day started off quite badly. Did not get enough sleep again due to the humid weather again. Was stressed out about this morning's appointment that did not happen. Was super tired from yesterday's exams. Brain malfunction, could not even converse properly today.

Rant.

Aside the bad things, some good things did happen today =)

Got my paedo work done and received good marks.
Yay!
Finished op tech work for pros, the mark for my temp post crown was pretty good.
Yay!
Finally trimmed my splint... can finally wear it tonight!
Yay!

And... this happened in the middle of the day that lifted my spirits a little.

He stopped in mid conversation just to say hi to me. Super cute.

I love little things that people do without realizing that can really make someone else's day. Giving up that extra 3 seconds to just ask "how are you?" - priceless.

I need sleep. Need to stop ranting. Need to organize study around extra dance training and performances. Looking forward to those performances.

Exams... *shiver*

Hui Hui ^^b

Dentistry and Dance

So many dance performances coming up.
Gulp.
Never knew they all came up near exam time.
Gulp.
#*#&^!@^%$#^%#@^&!^@#*$.

It's awesome that there will be more dancing, more performances, more rehearsals. However, there is only a limited amount of time in life! This means giving up something else in the mean time- my teeth studies! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK.

Officially freaking out.

Can't pull out of dance now, already committed. It just always seemed like it was "Bah... at the end of the year, should be nice and spread... just at the end of the year!"

Not.

EEEEEEEEEEEEE... don't know what to do anymore. Will stop writing and go study. Need to study whenever I have time now! GAH!

Hui Hui ^^b